Conny’s Story

Conny’s leg scars come from self-inflicted cuts and burns she made during a time of emotional trauma.

PLEASE NOTE: Self-harm is a serious issue that should be addressed through professional help. This story is not intended to promote self-harm but instead to encourage us to accept and embrace our scars from the past as part of who we are today.

Physical pain blocks out psychic pain. The brain is not able to focus on both at the same time. When I felt lonely, worthless and ugly, all it required was some small trigger for me to cut or burn myself. 

Physical pain blocks out psychic pain. The brain is not able to focus on both at the same time. When I felt lonely, worthless and ugly, all it required was some small trigger for me to cut or burn myself. 

It is an immense (although short-lived) relief and it makes you addicted quickly. Sometimes I would also cut myself to actually feel something, as opposed to feeling numb and empty inside. 

It is an immense (although short-lived) relief and it makes you addicted quickly. Sometimes I would also cut myself to actually feel something, as opposed to feeling numb and empty inside. 

The scars are not some kind of precious memory to me; they simply represent a time where I was in a really bad place emotionally. Painting the scars gold, however, was quite beautiful…

…as was seeing the finished results.

…as was seeing the finished results.

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I have been in therapy now for 1,5 years now in order to learn how to deal with my emotions in a healthier way. The last time I cut myself was 9 months ago. 

I have been in therapy now for 1,5 years now in order to learn how to deal with my emotions in a healthier way. The last time I cut myself was 9 months ago. 

The scars are still there and probably won't fade very soon, but I can accept them.

The scars are still there and probably won't fade very soon, but I can accept them.